EVERYTHING WORKS OUT IN THE END.

Hey guys, so it's been a while since I wrote a blog.

As you can understand from the title I am going to be ranting about a little incident of inconvenience that occurred in my life.

So more than a blog, this post is going to be a story.

So it all started on the 27th of May when the first merit list of all Mumbai University Colleges was going to be released.

My HSC marks weren't the best so I wasn't expecting my name to appear in the first merit list.

But I was hopeful for the second merit list which was gonna come out on 31st May.

So, now it's the 31st of May and I am POSITIVE ✨ that I'll make it to the second merit list of the 2 colleges that I've wanted for the past 2 years.

In short, they were my "dream colleges."

So at 7 pm that faithful day, the merit list was declared and my name was once again nowhere to be seen.

Now panic swept threw me cause I WAS POSITIVE THAT I'D MAKE IT, RIGHT?

Now my thoughts from “getting into my dream colleges” have shifted to “Will I even get admission into any college?”

So me being me AKA a horrible overthinker, is just having all these bad thoughts and I went on my group chat with my close friends and I am ranting to them about how I feel like dying as there is no point in living and how I never get what I want and saying that I just want to die ….u get a general idea… I don't want to say more things cuz the content can get sensitive and sudicical which is the last thing I want to turn my blog into. ( Also, you need to understand that generally I don't lose hope so fast but all my friends got admission and I was the only person who hadn't gotten admission. So maybe somewhere the fear of being behind others, affected my mental health. I was also crying a lot and just over sad.) So at this point, I've lost all hope and almost given up on these colleges.

Now 1 of the 2 colleges that I wanted had an entrance exam for my degree (BMS) and I didn't score that well in the entrance exam hence I had no chance of getting into that college.

So now I am left with only 1 college option. At this point I felt like maybe it was not meant to be and that there was something in this college that god is keeping me away from and trying to protect me from.

The next day I went to this college and the head of my desired degree told me that with my percentage I have little to no chance of getting in..he then said that getting into BMS is tough but there is scope for bcom degree.

Now I agree to the fact that I desperately want to get admission into this college but not at the cost of taking up a degree that I genuinely have no interest in. For the past 2 years, I've also been PROCLAIMING to everyone that I am going to take up this degree and then pursue my career in digital marketing.

So we didn't take admission into BCOM degree cuz I GENUINELY DIDN'T WANT IT.

So we are back to square one, which is: NO ADMISSION.

Now, I was on my way back when I received an email from a college that I had applied to, saying that my name was on the merit list and that I could take admission into it.

Honestly, I never even heard of this college so I didn't want to take admission.

Nonetheless, it's better to be safe than sorry so we took admission the next day so that at least I have admission somewhere.

I thought to myself “Here we go again settling for less”.

When I visited this college I was so sceptical because:

• I never heard of this college up until recently.

• The distance was convenient to my house which I didn't like cuz in 11th grade the same thing happened and the college turned out to be bad. ( I want to travel and get experience.)

•I didn't like the crowd. Not that it wasn't my vibe or whatever I genuinely didn't like the crowd.

So with all this in mind, I lost interest in the whole idea of “admission “.

Anyway, we got the admission and secured my name in this college.

U think my story ends here?

NAH.

See, one thing about me, I might not be smart like I'm average but I will get what I want for sure.

So now that I am not happy with this admission I saw this college which has gotten okayish reviews and now I have impulsively, without telling anyone, filled out the college admission form. Now that this point all merit lists are out and I don't know why but I wanted to try in this college . So in the night, I spoke with my parents and they said that it was decent so if I get admission I should take it.

Now, this is the third college that I've visited.

Just to keep a count 🔪.

At this college, the clerk said that I had a chance of getting in and that I should wait for the 5th merit list of this particular college to come out. Now this merit list was coming out on Saturday and it was just Tuesday.

He even said that even if your name isn't mentioned, he will give me admission.

Now I know that I wanted this college because I impulsively filled out the form but when I visited the college and saw the crowd I DIDN'T NOT LIKE IT. It was worse than the one that I got admission into. So now I lost interest in this one too.

Now I know what all of you must be thinking, first she wanted this college and now again she is changing her mind. I can't help it though.

Now a little preview about the dream college.

Now when I didn't make it to the last list, my mother's friend suggested that we visit my parish priest and speak to him as he helps with admissions.

So I went and spoke to him and he told me that I would get a call from the college calling me for admission…. So now I am hopeful and eagerly waiting for their call.

U know that feeling when you know ur about to receive something and you're so excited that it's all you can think about?

Yeah, that was what I was feeling. But 1 day turned into 1 week and I had received no such call. Now back to mindset 1, which is: no hope, just forget about it.

Anyway after a few days up until recently my father convinced me to get back to the priest stating that I hadn't received the phone call.

Looking back, THANK GOD I DID THAT.

So I went back to the priest and told him and he told me he would get back to him and I would get a call ( aka same thing he told me previously.)

So now this college orientation was on the 15th of June. ( The orientation got postponed but I missed it anyway.) And now I am like HOPELESS cuz it was the 15th of June and I haven't received any such phone call.

So on the 15th morning, I randomly see a missed call and something in my head tells me to check this number on Truecaller so I do so.

And omg.

It was a missed call from the college.

They must have called me for admission!!!!

Now I call them back around 12 to 15 times and didn't get a call back. Then after an hour I tried the number again and got through. It was a lady and when I told her why I called, she told me to meet this person on Monday morning.

So now it's Monday, 16th of June, the day to go there and meet the person. We went and I handed over all my documents and he verified my name through Father and then said that we could proceed with the admissions.

Now I had applied for the Christian minority quota but he said that the seats were full and that I would have to refill the form for the open category to get admission.

After a long time of running around, getting anxious, filling out the form and removing Xeror copies, etc, etc finally my father paid the fees and the admission was secured.

Did u hear me correctly?

I GOT ADMISSION!!! IN THE COLLEGE THAT I WANTED TO GET INTO FOR THE PAST 2 YEARS!!!

It was a huge achievement for me.

Now I just want to shed some light on something:

So you know when you're overthinking and your Instagram feed gets affected don't ask me how.

Yeah.

The same thing happened to me.

So reels like “ ur luckiest day are arriving”.

"Your bad days are ending."

"This decision is going to change your future."

Blah blah blah.

U get the idea.

So I saved all these reels not with the intention of them coming true will go get back at them in the comments if they don't work.

But one of them was different.

It was a manifestation reel.

Now you must know that I don't get the concept of manifestation because it's a broad concept. But she too said that ‘ u will get want you want and all your dreams are coming true.”

I was like okay….but then she said “As confirmation, you will see these things”.

She mentioned some series of numbers and colors and then in the other section she mentioned seeing moths and butterflies.

Very specific right?

NOW.

I Woke up early cuz I had to go to the college and this is at 6 Am in the morning so it's pretty dark.

Now I have a glass window in my room that gives a reflection when light is shed onto it.

And my eyes go to the window where I see something small moving.

On closer inspection, I saw a moth.

Immediately that video flashed in my mind.

I was like, ‘Is this a sign?’

Anyway, I got ready to leave and pressed the button for the elevator.

Now it's around 7:00 AM.

When I open the door to the elevator.

I KID YOU NOT.

I see a small butterfly.

It was black with yellow dots on it.

And I also remember that she said seeing the color yellow, orange and something else means confirmation that you will get what you desire.

So at this point, I've become POSITIVE.

What I want to say is that:

• Don't settle for less.

• Never give up on your dreams.

• Try your best to achieve what you want and you will get it.

• If it's not written for you it will not happen, how much you try.

• Try all means/methods, and take all paths to get what you want.

• Everything takes time, don't rush.

• Just because U get somewhere doesn't mean you shouldn't try someplace else.

• U will get what your heart truly desires.

In the end, I will say that yes, these past few weeks have been a rollercoaster.

But just keeping god in charge of your life and allowing him to take control, helps a long way.

Also after many years, a manifestation has worked for me so I will definitely be becoming a lot more delulu 😂🎀.

So don't give up on your dreams just yet.

Also, I think that most of you are like me, a teenager and ups and downs are going to be there but just staying strong and having a healthy mindset can change your approach in life.

(Hehe, I yet consider myself a teenager but I recently turned 18🎀).

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I love writing blogs especially such blogs that highlight experiences.

My best friend always motivates me to write more so and I am grateful that I can share my piece of mind through my blogs.

Have a wonderful day ahead 🎀.

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